NOT A PHILOSOPHER, A TERCA SCHOLAR.

Throughout my academic journey, I've grappled with the multifaceted traumas of striving for intellectual and personal growth and, yes, sexual harassment and gender discrimination. My love for critical theory, phenomenology, and the intricate nuances of trans existence, especially in relation to borders and migrations, fueled my passion. Yet, my deep-rooted passion was met with the stinging statement: "You are not a philosopher."

But the path I've walked, the knowledge I've sought, and the person I've become in this journey have led me to an epiphany: I might not be "a philosopher" in their eyes, but I am a GOAT, or better yet a terca scholar in my realm. The irony of such a dismissal in a space that claims to promote critical thinking and introspection is palpable. How does one define a philosopher? By the depth of their questions? By their contribution to knowledge? Or by their ability to adhere to conventional academic norms?

Every job application became a site of internal conflict. Am I enough? Do I fit the mold? But when I recently came across the position for a "philosopher of education," something clicked. The mere fact that I met the requirements to apply and could see my trajectory, experiences, and expertise fitting this role was a testament to my capabilities and worth. Whether or not I secure this job is secondary. The true victory lies in recognizing my worth and understanding that I am competent and exceptional in what I love. The traditional boundaries of philosophy do not confine me. Instead, I've carved a niche, a unique space where my insights, perspectives, and lived experiences converge to create the type of knowledge that is needed.

In this self-reflective journey, I've realized that external validations, while gratifying, are fleeting. What truly matters is the internal affirmation, the voice that says, "You've got this jota!." And so, as I navigate the academic terrain, armed with passion, expertise, and resilience, I wear the label "NOT A PHILOSOPHER, A TERCA SCHOLAR." with pride. It's not just about being good at what I do; it's about recognizing and celebrating my unparalleled journey in the vast world of thought and inquiry.